I just got back from my NPR taping. It went well, I think. I'm feeling good. So please disregard the column a few screens down. The one in which I'm critical of an NPR story. No hard feelings, right? We're friends again.
My commentary--my first in four years--was slated to run on New Year's Day, though now it looks like it'll be the following Monday. Or it was, depending on when you're reading this.
One of my New Year's wishes is to do more NPR Commentaries. Another is to get better at blogging--what IS this blog about anyway? (If the still popular Seinfeld was a show about nothing, can a blog about nothing be successful too?) And Twittering and Facebooking, etc. If anybody reading this has any advice, please do share.
Arriving at NPR West is an experience of mixed reactions. It's in a nondescript building. A warehouse. In a fairly industrial area. A far cry from the Sony Studios a few blocks to the north!
I'm nervous. I'm five minutes late. But nowhere near as nervous as I was on my previous visit, four years ago.
Yet inside the place is very hip but quiet. Casual, clean. I'm energized and my nervousness evaporates.
I keep thinking it would make a great lounge/café. It's got exposed pipes and things in the high ceiling, and TV screens abound. An echoey space, yet quiet as a library. Lots of glass-walled, soundproof mini studios.
I was escorted to one of the smallest studios. Passing and passing up the offered donuts and snack machine. My older daughter, Paula, and my assistant Beethoven are with me. They sat out in the lounge area. Don't think they took any donuts or Fritos either.
My studio really only had room for one. I pulled up to the desk, which was easier than I remembered, now that I no longer drive my wheelchair with a hand control. The last time I was here, the hand control bumped the desk and I had to position myself way back.
Before removing himself to the lounge area, Beethoven removed the device I now use to drive my chair, which is a mini-joystick installed on a plastic collar. He helped position my script on the page holder. The studio person pulled a hotdog-size microphone close to my mouth. In front of me were two computer screens and a lot of switches and dials. Which I willfully ignored. Beethoven gave me a swallow of water and then left the room.
Through the big headphones I was introduced to my producer Joanna, in Washington. After some introductory bla bla bla, I set in to read my bit.
It went smoothly. I even remembered to substitute "in the past year” for "this past year," as my editor Maeve had requested, and to take out the word "little" when describing my daughters.
"You were clear and had energy," said Joanna. "I'm going to ask you to read the whole thing one more time, just in case." I did, and that was it. No additional retakes (unlike in my last visit).
We were out of there in less than a half-hour.
A good end to an un-bad year. Or a good beginning for the new one, I suppose, depending on when it's actually broadcast.
Afterward, dropped off Paula at the Starbucks on the Third Street Promenade to meet her friend Gina. They were going for birthday makeovers (Paula turned 14 yesterday) and a movie. It's raining outside. I hope Paula remembered her umbrella.
Here's hoping 2010 brings everyone umbrellas if it's raining--as well as peace and joy, good fortune and good health, whatever the weather.
(One curmudgeonly note: I trust we can stop saying "two-thousand and..." and get back to the simpler way of saying years. You know, as we last did in good ol' nineteen-ninety-nine. In this case, saying "twenty-ten" instead of "two-thousand-and-ten." Y'think?)
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
GLEE's “Wheels” episode
It brought up issues such as why it's unfair to have the wheelchair kid travel in his dad's car instead of the club's bus (the school won't pay for an accessible bus). And the lack of ramps around the school.
It even ended with the kid's annoyance that the others are only pretending, that although the fact that they're spending time in wheelchairs seemed nice at first--he goes so far as to start a romance with the girl who stutters, sensing a kindred spirit--the others can always get out of their wheelchairs … a choice he doesn't have. I, too, have always had doubts about these kinds of exercises in empathy.
I acknowledge that, at times, he was a tad pitiful in his isolation and exclusion, but it rang true for me. And he was strong in that he taught the others how to dance in a wheelchair. He was teaching them instead of being helped or pitied, and not in a sappy or inspirational way.
The only problem, in case you haven't heard, is that the actor playing Artie (Kevin McHale, apparently from a band called NLT) does not actually have a disability. He does it well, I think. The way he sits. The way he moves. Could have fooled me. But sadly, no, the actor is able-bodied. And, so far anyway, there hasn't been a scene of him dreaming of walking or anything like that, thank God. He's always in the wheelchair. Which is to say there's no reason for his being played by an able-bodied actor, no excuse for not hiring an actor who can't walk.
Why on Earth not choose an actor/singer/dancer who really does use a wheelchair?
Not that he should have been excluded because he's not disabled. Let me be clear:
I have nothing against nondisabled actors portraying characters with disabilities IF actors with disabilities are also given the chance to portray characters that don't necessarily call for disabilities. If you're casting a doctor or lawyer or cop or whatever, why not use or at least consider an actor in a wheelchair (or who's blind, deaf, etc.)? That would be fair.
Unfortunately, the entertainment industry is not fair. From what I've heard, although the producers of "Glee" claim it's hard to find someone with sufficient talent for their unusual program, they DIDN'T EVEN CONSIDER PERFORMERS WITH DISABILITIES. They can't say the talent wasn't there, because they didn't audition any.
"It was very hard to find people who could really sing, really act, and have that charisma you need on TV," Brad Falchuk told USA Today (linked below). Falchuk is an executive producer of "Glee." Another thing he found hard, the poor dear: "It's hard to say no to someone that talented," he said, of McHale.
Hey buddy, you think YOUR life is tough?
(A familiar tactic: the guilty acting like the victim.)
Would having an actual crip in the role have enhanced last night's storyline? Impossible to say. I thought the story was well done anyway. But the casting is definitely, patently unjust to performers with disabilities. There are so few roles for them, yet so much talent.
Possibly the best current example of an actor with a significant disability in a role that doesn't require it can be seen in the original "CSI," the CBS phenomenon. My old friend Dave Hall, a.k.a. Dr. Robbins, struggled for many years as an actor who uses crutches. He worked, but not enough. Did a lot of radio and cartoon voices. Until "CSI: Crime Scene Investigation" came along nearly a decade ago.
The latest addition to the short list of TV programs featuring actors with real, highly visible disabilities is "Brothers," also on Fox. The comic actor Daryl "Chill" Mitchell is a strong character in an unfortunately mediocre sitcom, it seems to me. Okay, I haven't watched many episodes. And the little bit I've seen bothers my disability consciousness. Look at the background sets, for example. The bar he co-owns with his brother has three steps at the front entrance. How does the dude get in every day? Is there a back entrance? (If this or other access issues were dealt with in an old episode I missed, I hope someone will let me know.)
Here's the point: "Glee" errs in having a nondisabled performer portray a wheelchair-user. That's for sure. It's the disability equivalent of black- or yellow-face. Nevertheless, it's gone further than any other program I can think of in bringing disability issues to the fore. No, its treatment of accessibility and acceptance and such may not be perfect. It isn't everything activists want. But let's put its shortcomings in context, shall we? To some, its gay character, Kurt--is the actor, Chris Colfer, actually gay? I have no idea; doesn't matter, since so many (secretly) gay performers do get work playing straight roles--is fairly stereotypical, too. He likes musicals and talks a lot about his fashion sense. He doesn't really advance gay issues much, does he? Kurt also figured prominently in the wheelchair episode, but to me to less eye-opening effect.
Then there are the bimbo blonde cheerleaders, the smart nerdy Asian kids, the heavyset African-American woman who sings a mean gospel, the dumb jocks, etc. Stereotypes, all! But in a way the show turns those stereotypes upside down. It makes fun of making fun of people. And it celebrates the differences.
If "Glee" is going to put together a group of minority misfits, isn't it great that it's including disability--at least conceptually, if not in actuality--as part of the mix?
Sometimes it takes a member of the majority culture, an insider, to bridge the gap (open the door?) to integrating a misunderstood minority group into the mainstream. I know this firsthand. Many bigots find it easier to accept me as an equal when they see me being accepted by people like themselves, that is, in the context of my nondisabled family. It's as if, if SHE can accept him, then maybe I can too . Mr. Spock had to have Capt. Kirk to make him acceptable--likable, even sexy--to a mainstream audience. It shouldn't be, but it is so.
Do the ends justify the means? That is, do the benefits of the "Glee" episode outweigh the sins of disability blackface? I'm not an actor, but from where I sit, whether justified or not, the result--bringing into TV watchers' living rooms the concept of the importance of providing a sufficient quantity of ramps and accessible, integrated buses--looks like a good thing, a measure of progress toward integration.
And after all, isn't integration what it's all about?
For more on this subject, see:
http://www.usatoday.com/life/television/news/2009-11-10-glee-wheelchair_N.htm
To view the actual episode (or others), go to hulu.com or
http://www.fox.com/glee/
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
It sounded good on TV...
This may not really qualify as a blog--but then, look at my productivity here lately. Begging blogs can't be too choosy.
Here's my short, thoughtful query for this Veterans Day:
How come it sounds so much better on TV when someone says, "I heard you were dead" than in real life? I thought of this last night watching NCIS: LA. The idea, of course, was that our hero and his nemesis were misinformed about the other's fate. It added an element of surprise, of drama, to the story. Made everything that happened afterward seem terribly important.
Yet on the other hand, there's real life. Remember real life? That's like on another channel.
In real life, last year my family rushed to the hospital where I'd been admitted via the emergency room because they'd HEARD I WAS DEAD... or at least close to it.
A whole different vibe, no?
Please tell me what you think.
And in case you missed it, the news of my death was greatly exaggerated. Well, premature, anyway.
So celebrate the reality that I'm still among the living by visiting my friends at Not Dead Yet (http://www.notdeadyet.org/docs/gear.html), and buy the T-shirt!
Here's my short, thoughtful query for this Veterans Day:
How come it sounds so much better on TV when someone says, "I heard you were dead" than in real life? I thought of this last night watching NCIS: LA. The idea, of course, was that our hero and his nemesis were misinformed about the other's fate. It added an element of surprise, of drama, to the story. Made everything that happened afterward seem terribly important.
Yet on the other hand, there's real life. Remember real life? That's like on another channel.
In real life, last year my family rushed to the hospital where I'd been admitted via the emergency room because they'd HEARD I WAS DEAD... or at least close to it.
A whole different vibe, no?
Please tell me what you think.
And in case you missed it, the news of my death was greatly exaggerated. Well, premature, anyway.
So celebrate the reality that I'm still among the living by visiting my friends at Not Dead Yet (http://www.notdeadyet.org/docs/gear.html), and buy the T-shirt!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Bam Bam Bop Obama?
Oct. 14, 2009--On a rainy day in L.A., when everyone is making a ridiculously big deal about it--all the TV news programs are emblazoned with STORM WATCH--as if we haven't seen rain in 100 years or something--as if we were living in the desert!--I thought I'd share a couple of other things that have annoyed me lately.
Last weekend my younger daughter said she wanted a punching bag for either Christmas or Chanuka. ("Oh, you mean to replace your mother?" I said.) I was surprised, since she's not an especially violent kid, but I thought, why not? Get a little exercise. Let out some frustration. Doesn't cost much, doesn't make a mess, doesn't make much noise ... plus, I had one as a kid and was crazy about it.
"Sure," I said.
Finding none at Target, partly because I forgot to look and partly because I figured she'd change her mind in the next hour or two, I ended up searching online the next day when she again asked for the pugilistic plaything.
Ta-da! To my amazement, there, on Amazon.com, was the very same Bozo the Clown inflatable, can't-knock-'im-over, 4-feet-tall sock-me toy I'd had as a tot!
I called her to my computer screen. "How about that one?" I asked.
"Okay," she said, but she sounded unsure.
Well, you know Amazon. Plenty of alternatives are also displayed. So we looked. There was a Scooby one. And one that looked more like something you'd find in a men's gymnasium, if you were in a black-and-white movie from the 1940s or 50s.
Finally I noticed one with another cartoon character on it…and a very funny name scrawled across--wait!
I had to read it twice.
I had to take a closer look. It was horrible! Absolutely disgusting. So offensive it should be illegal. Is it for real? Why isn't anybody staging a boycott? Maybe I should.
All right, here was the offender: "Bam Bam Bop Bag Obama."
Yes, that Obama. As in President of the United States Obama. Kids could have fun socking the duly elected Commander in Chief and Leader of the Free World. For under $25.
I checked the small print. No, it was not brought to you by The Rush Limbaugh and Dick Cheney Toy Company. But how could you explain--how could I explain, to my daughter or to myself--the caricature on the thing.
Sure, Barack Obama is a sports nut. He plays basketball and encourages the White House staff to stay in shape. But there's his image, in cartoon, in boxing gloves and striped boxer shorts, and--I shudder to enter this into my computer--grinning stupidly with an orange-slice mouth of gleaming pearly whites. Yazzuh!
Can you imagine this with any other president? Was there a Bash Bop Bush? A Wollop W.?
Punch it hard, kiddies! Destroy this invidious piece of reactionary propaganda! But realize that what you're socking has a strong resemblance to the vilest stereotypes of a previous, prejudiced era. Because that's exactly what it looks like to me—an old segregationist joke.
Maybe I've lost my sense of humor. The product description explains thus: "Release all your stress from politics as usual! For or against Barack Obama? Either way, relieve some stress...! Yes, we can -- Bop with Bar..."
And get this: It comes with political bumper stickers. Doesn't say for which side.
www.amazon.com/Rocket-USA-Inch-Bam-Obama
Made by Rocket USA
Sold (via amazon.com) by
ABCTOY4me
13303 Rosecrans Ave
Santa Fe Spring, CA 90670
Telephone: (562) 926-0888
Fax: (714) 475-5871
Email: ABCTOY4me@aol.com
Last weekend my younger daughter said she wanted a punching bag for either Christmas or Chanuka. ("Oh, you mean to replace your mother?" I said.) I was surprised, since she's not an especially violent kid, but I thought, why not? Get a little exercise. Let out some frustration. Doesn't cost much, doesn't make a mess, doesn't make much noise ... plus, I had one as a kid and was crazy about it.
"Sure," I said.
Finding none at Target, partly because I forgot to look and partly because I figured she'd change her mind in the next hour or two, I ended up searching online the next day when she again asked for the pugilistic plaything.
Ta-da! To my amazement, there, on Amazon.com, was the very same Bozo the Clown inflatable, can't-knock-'im-over, 4-feet-tall sock-me toy I'd had as a tot!
I called her to my computer screen. "How about that one?" I asked.
"Okay," she said, but she sounded unsure.
Well, you know Amazon. Plenty of alternatives are also displayed. So we looked. There was a Scooby one. And one that looked more like something you'd find in a men's gymnasium, if you were in a black-and-white movie from the 1940s or 50s.
Finally I noticed one with another cartoon character on it…and a very funny name scrawled across--wait!
I had to read it twice.
I had to take a closer look. It was horrible! Absolutely disgusting. So offensive it should be illegal. Is it for real? Why isn't anybody staging a boycott? Maybe I should.
All right, here was the offender: "Bam Bam Bop Bag Obama."
Yes, that Obama. As in President of the United States Obama. Kids could have fun socking the duly elected Commander in Chief and Leader of the Free World. For under $25.
I checked the small print. No, it was not brought to you by The Rush Limbaugh and Dick Cheney Toy Company. But how could you explain--how could I explain, to my daughter or to myself--the caricature on the thing.
Sure, Barack Obama is a sports nut. He plays basketball and encourages the White House staff to stay in shape. But there's his image, in cartoon, in boxing gloves and striped boxer shorts, and--I shudder to enter this into my computer--grinning stupidly with an orange-slice mouth of gleaming pearly whites. Yazzuh!
Can you imagine this with any other president? Was there a Bash Bop Bush? A Wollop W.?
Punch it hard, kiddies! Destroy this invidious piece of reactionary propaganda! But realize that what you're socking has a strong resemblance to the vilest stereotypes of a previous, prejudiced era. Because that's exactly what it looks like to me—an old segregationist joke.
Maybe I've lost my sense of humor. The product description explains thus: "Release all your stress from politics as usual! For or against Barack Obama? Either way, relieve some stress...! Yes, we can -- Bop with Bar..."
And get this: It comes with political bumper stickers. Doesn't say for which side.
www.amazon.com/Rocket-USA-Inch-Bam-Obama
Made by Rocket USA
Sold (via amazon.com) by
ABCTOY4me
13303 Rosecrans Ave
Santa Fe Spring, CA 90670
Telephone: (562) 926-0888
Fax: (714) 475-5871
Email: ABCTOY4me@aol.com
Infinity grows more infinite
Oct. 14, 2009 (Part 2)--Bone of contention No. 2--The other day NPR Morning Edition's Alix Spiegel did a good story about how doctor-patient relationships in this country have changed over the past 10 or 20 years. Because of the Internet, pharmaceutical ads on TV, and, ironically, the rise of HMOs in the 1990s--which led physicians to avoid certain medical tests and procedures so they could clear more profits (since they were paid per patient, not per service)--patients have gotten in the habit of requesting their physicians prescribe new drugs, MRIs, etc. Even demanding them. And doctors say okay whether or not the procedure or medication is indicated, because a) they're afraid of losing business to the doctor down the street, and b) they're afraid that if they missed something, if something goes wrong, they'll be sued.
This isn't so much a problem, except perhaps to the insurance companies, unless we're talking about over-prescribing antibiotics. Which causes them to lose effectiveness and leads to stronger, more dangerous microbes. You still with me?
At any rate, the young-sounding reporter (OK, I looked her up; she's about 37) ended the piece with a terrific albeit ominous quote from one of the physicians--Dr. Joseph Zebley, a family doctor in Baltimore. He said, "We have an infinity of need."
Bingo! That should have been the end of the story. An infinity of need. The need--or people's perceived need--is infinite. Perfect!
But then Spiegel, the reporter, who's won a Peabody Award among other accolades, just had to put her own, unnecessary cap on it. Before closing, she chimed in with, "An infinity of need that grows more infinite all the time."
Really?!
Infinity grows more infinite?
Isn't the whole point about infinity that it's basically as fully grown as it can be? Infinity cannot grow. If something is infinite, it goes on forever. Yes?
Sure, we all say stupid things sometimes. But this was in an edited piece. It wasn't a news item hot off the microphone. It was obviously prepared well in advance. Why didn't someone cut or correct this?
I may have a grudge against NPR, because it's basically stopped using my commentaries, but I began to wonder if it's quality is slipping. Wouldn't be surprising, given its budget cuts over the past few years.
In fact, my most recent commentary submission was accepted but I'm waiting to hear back from my editor about necessary changes. When I asked her what's taking so long, she apologized and conceded that much of the staff was on furlough so those remaining were having to double up on the workload.
Aha! Perhaps my suspicions are correct. The program is not being as thoroughly edited as it used to be! Or, to save money, is it using younger correspondents than it used to? I mean, it's great to give up-and-comers a shot, but I still prefer the old pros, the seasoned experts who made NPR news the great thing it is. Or was.
I hope I haven't just blown my chances there...
A transcript of the story is here:
www.npr.org/templates/transcript/transcript.php?storyId=113664923
You can hear the NPR broadcast here:
www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=113664923
or
www.npr.org/templates/player/mediaPlayer.html?action=1&t=1&islist=false&id=113664923&m=113724450
photo of Alix Spiegel
www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=90889243
This isn't so much a problem, except perhaps to the insurance companies, unless we're talking about over-prescribing antibiotics. Which causes them to lose effectiveness and leads to stronger, more dangerous microbes. You still with me?
At any rate, the young-sounding reporter (OK, I looked her up; she's about 37) ended the piece with a terrific albeit ominous quote from one of the physicians--Dr. Joseph Zebley, a family doctor in Baltimore. He said, "We have an infinity of need."
Bingo! That should have been the end of the story. An infinity of need. The need--or people's perceived need--is infinite. Perfect!
But then Spiegel, the reporter, who's won a Peabody Award among other accolades, just had to put her own, unnecessary cap on it. Before closing, she chimed in with, "An infinity of need that grows more infinite all the time."
Really?!
Infinity grows more infinite?
Isn't the whole point about infinity that it's basically as fully grown as it can be? Infinity cannot grow. If something is infinite, it goes on forever. Yes?
Sure, we all say stupid things sometimes. But this was in an edited piece. It wasn't a news item hot off the microphone. It was obviously prepared well in advance. Why didn't someone cut or correct this?
I may have a grudge against NPR, because it's basically stopped using my commentaries, but I began to wonder if it's quality is slipping. Wouldn't be surprising, given its budget cuts over the past few years.
In fact, my most recent commentary submission was accepted but I'm waiting to hear back from my editor about necessary changes. When I asked her what's taking so long, she apologized and conceded that much of the staff was on furlough so those remaining were having to double up on the workload.
Aha! Perhaps my suspicions are correct. The program is not being as thoroughly edited as it used to be! Or, to save money, is it using younger correspondents than it used to? I mean, it's great to give up-and-comers a shot, but I still prefer the old pros, the seasoned experts who made NPR news the great thing it is. Or was.
I hope I haven't just blown my chances there...
A transcript of the story is here:
www.npr.org/templates/transcript/transcript.php?storyId=113664923
You can hear the NPR broadcast here:
www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=113664923
or
www.npr.org/templates/player/mediaPlayer.html?action=1&t=1&islist=false&id=113664923&m=113724450
photo of Alix Spiegel
www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=90889243
Friday, September 11, 2009
HOW I LOST IT ON MAUI: A HAWAII CAROL (of sorts)
Sept. 12, 2009--I'm just back from a week in Hawaii, a vacation with the family, and I'm struggling to answer when people ask, "How was your trip?"
"Beautiful. It's incredibly beautiful there," I've resigned myself to responding, inadequately.
After all, who can dispute it? Maui IS beautiful ... its mythically warm ocean, with bands of aquamarine bleeding along the rich blue-green spectrum as the sunlight shifts angles ... the perfect white clouds dotting an impossibly blue sky like in a storybook, a fairy tale ... the crystalline air, especially welcome after L.A.'s smog, which was particularly bad before we left because of the wildfires ... the refreshing winds that wash over you, cooling you down from the hot sun ... the gentle rains that burst forth daily, but you don't mind, and they never last long ... and the rainbows they leave behind, like the afterglow of a kiss ...
Still, people do seem puzzled by my answer. My internal conflict is apparently obvious.
Truth be told: the trip was exhausting, and we're all glad to be home again.
Not to sound ungrateful. We were very fortunate to be able to get away and have the opportunity to experience God and Nature's resplendence. But were we--am I--grateful ENOUGH? Is my gratitude worthy of Maui's magnificence? Could it possibly ever be up to the task?
Let me explain.
First of all, traveling on an airplane with a wheelchair--two wheelchairs, actually, since I always bring my old manual one in case the airline mangles my motorized chair--is never effortless. Though American Airlines surprised me with an unprecedented level of helpfulness, it's still incumbent on us to transfer me out of the chair and get the chair made ready for cargo, bubble wrap and all. Until the air carriers become truly wheelchair accessible, that is, and let wheelchair-using passengers fly on board in their own chairs.
Also, the assorted paraphernalia to lug. Battery chargers and, for me lately, various respiratory apparatus.
Second, traveling with children isn't the easiest thing either. Though my daughters were very well behaved in the airport, on the planes and, indeed, throughout the ordeal--yes, I said ordeal--they're still kids. They get bored with adult conversation and sightseeing. They fight about who gets which bed. They want to watch TV. They want to go home.
Yet there's another, more surprising and perhaps more terrible downside to our Hawaii vacation.
Within days I began to feel profoundly sad. Not overwhelmingly so, but something deep within me was off-kilter ... ill-at-ease ... disturbed, perhaps. Where were the shimmying grass skirts, endless barrels of mai tais and piña coladas, limitless racks of barbecued pork and bushels of pineapples and mangoes (all of which would have wreaked havoc on my gut), the prolonged and languorous honeymoon-like lovemaking, and so forth? In short, the Tiki-infused overabundent free-flowing joy?
Okay, I play it too cool and cosmopolitan to be swept away by kitschy clichés. And yes, I admittedly sound bratty, kvetchy. I was in the midst of boundless natural beauty! But I was also in a small, somewhat depressed town of mostly working-class people sustained primarily by the tourist trade, doubtless down in this recession. The locals seemed unhappy, somehow. The natives were restless.
Before we arrived, one of the managers of the condo complex where we stayed mentioned that someone there was out on vacation. I joked, “Where does one go on vacation from Maui?” He said those who live and work there can't imagine why anyone comes to visit. "There's nothing here," he complained with a chuckle.
So there I was in this depressed small town much like any other American company town in this day and age, albeit bathed in tropical breezes and sunbeams, and though I tried to be cheerful and soak up the vacation vibe, I turned introspective.
As I tried to sort out my feelings, here's what I wrote (yes, it's like two blogs in one!):
9-4-09: It's the week before Labor Day, and here I am on Maui, in Hawaii, enjoying the beautifully clean air and the impossibly beautiful ocean views and the beautifully light, refreshing, occasional rains--and I'm thinking about Christmas.
Not because I miss winter, either.
What do Christmas and this American Eden have in common? Both are supposed to fill you with a joyous wonderment--are they not? In the days before leaving the flames of L.A. for fantasy island, I'd occasionally let people know that I was going to be out of town, and I'd occasionally let them know where I'd be. I lost count of the people who reacted with, I'm so jealous! Can I go with you? Or words to that effect.
It's supposed to be so, so great here. It's supposed to fill you with a new spirit, make you young and relaxed and at peace. Just like Christmas. Your inner joyous child will come out and push away all the sooty, high-pressure, aggressive, tensed-up adult responsibilities. Right?
Plus, these hopeful, warm and fuzzy feelings should last, should change you! Let the Aloha Spirit stay with you through all your days! Keep Christmas in your heart all year long!
How could Maui or Xmas live up to its billing?
Though intrinsically distinct, yuletide sentiments and the aloha atmosphere amount to the same thing, don't they? And if you don't feel them--if the mood-enhancement isn't delivered as promised--you're disappointed. You feel a failure. And you mourn the loss of the joy that was supposed to be yours, the chi you can't quite find or hold onto.
Hence a deep sadness washes over me. I am here, in Paradise...
Yet life it goes on ... and I almost can't wait until it does, till this digression is over, made golden perhaps in memory.
You're just not feeling it the way you're expected to.
Is something wrong with me?
"Beautiful. It's incredibly beautiful there," I've resigned myself to responding, inadequately.
After all, who can dispute it? Maui IS beautiful ... its mythically warm ocean, with bands of aquamarine bleeding along the rich blue-green spectrum as the sunlight shifts angles ... the perfect white clouds dotting an impossibly blue sky like in a storybook, a fairy tale ... the crystalline air, especially welcome after L.A.'s smog, which was particularly bad before we left because of the wildfires ... the refreshing winds that wash over you, cooling you down from the hot sun ... the gentle rains that burst forth daily, but you don't mind, and they never last long ... and the rainbows they leave behind, like the afterglow of a kiss ...
Still, people do seem puzzled by my answer. My internal conflict is apparently obvious.
Truth be told: the trip was exhausting, and we're all glad to be home again.
Not to sound ungrateful. We were very fortunate to be able to get away and have the opportunity to experience God and Nature's resplendence. But were we--am I--grateful ENOUGH? Is my gratitude worthy of Maui's magnificence? Could it possibly ever be up to the task?
Let me explain.
First of all, traveling on an airplane with a wheelchair--two wheelchairs, actually, since I always bring my old manual one in case the airline mangles my motorized chair--is never effortless. Though American Airlines surprised me with an unprecedented level of helpfulness, it's still incumbent on us to transfer me out of the chair and get the chair made ready for cargo, bubble wrap and all. Until the air carriers become truly wheelchair accessible, that is, and let wheelchair-using passengers fly on board in their own chairs.
Also, the assorted paraphernalia to lug. Battery chargers and, for me lately, various respiratory apparatus.
Second, traveling with children isn't the easiest thing either. Though my daughters were very well behaved in the airport, on the planes and, indeed, throughout the ordeal--yes, I said ordeal--they're still kids. They get bored with adult conversation and sightseeing. They fight about who gets which bed. They want to watch TV. They want to go home.
Yet there's another, more surprising and perhaps more terrible downside to our Hawaii vacation.
Within days I began to feel profoundly sad. Not overwhelmingly so, but something deep within me was off-kilter ... ill-at-ease ... disturbed, perhaps. Where were the shimmying grass skirts, endless barrels of mai tais and piña coladas, limitless racks of barbecued pork and bushels of pineapples and mangoes (all of which would have wreaked havoc on my gut), the prolonged and languorous honeymoon-like lovemaking, and so forth? In short, the Tiki-infused overabundent free-flowing joy?
Okay, I play it too cool and cosmopolitan to be swept away by kitschy clichés. And yes, I admittedly sound bratty, kvetchy. I was in the midst of boundless natural beauty! But I was also in a small, somewhat depressed town of mostly working-class people sustained primarily by the tourist trade, doubtless down in this recession. The locals seemed unhappy, somehow. The natives were restless.
Before we arrived, one of the managers of the condo complex where we stayed mentioned that someone there was out on vacation. I joked, “Where does one go on vacation from Maui?” He said those who live and work there can't imagine why anyone comes to visit. "There's nothing here," he complained with a chuckle.
So there I was in this depressed small town much like any other American company town in this day and age, albeit bathed in tropical breezes and sunbeams, and though I tried to be cheerful and soak up the vacation vibe, I turned introspective.
As I tried to sort out my feelings, here's what I wrote (yes, it's like two blogs in one!):
9-4-09: It's the week before Labor Day, and here I am on Maui, in Hawaii, enjoying the beautifully clean air and the impossibly beautiful ocean views and the beautifully light, refreshing, occasional rains--and I'm thinking about Christmas.
Not because I miss winter, either.
What do Christmas and this American Eden have in common? Both are supposed to fill you with a joyous wonderment--are they not? In the days before leaving the flames of L.A. for fantasy island, I'd occasionally let people know that I was going to be out of town, and I'd occasionally let them know where I'd be. I lost count of the people who reacted with, I'm so jealous! Can I go with you? Or words to that effect.
It's supposed to be so, so great here. It's supposed to fill you with a new spirit, make you young and relaxed and at peace. Just like Christmas. Your inner joyous child will come out and push away all the sooty, high-pressure, aggressive, tensed-up adult responsibilities. Right?
Plus, these hopeful, warm and fuzzy feelings should last, should change you! Let the Aloha Spirit stay with you through all your days! Keep Christmas in your heart all year long!
How could Maui or Xmas live up to its billing?
Though intrinsically distinct, yuletide sentiments and the aloha atmosphere amount to the same thing, don't they? And if you don't feel them--if the mood-enhancement isn't delivered as promised--you're disappointed. You feel a failure. And you mourn the loss of the joy that was supposed to be yours, the chi you can't quite find or hold onto.
Hence a deep sadness washes over me. I am here, in Paradise...
Yet life it goes on ... and I almost can't wait until it does, till this digression is over, made golden perhaps in memory.
You're just not feeling it the way you're expected to.
Is something wrong with me?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I AM the health-care debate
The health-care arguments and counter-arguments may aim at and ultimately impact everyone, but perhaps no one more than me. How can I make such a preposterous claim? Simple.
First, I have a pre-existing condition. I was born with spinal muscular atrophy, a severe, degenerative neuromuscular weakness. I've never walked or stood, and have limited use of my upper body.
Having a pre-existing condition is not so big a problem insurance-wise as it used to be. In the Clinton administration, new regulations were passed that basically require insurance companies to accept a subscriber with pre-existing conditions if he or she was covered by another insurance carrier in the past year. This made a big difference in my life. Still, for that coverage, I have to pay an arm and a leg. Yes, even if they're an atrophied arm and leg.
That's largely due to the second reason I'll be deeply affected by health-care reform. Because of my lifelong disability, I've never been able to land a real job. Despite graduating with honors from Harvard College 25 years ago, I've only received temporary, short-term assignments, never full-time employment. Thus I have to go shopping for my own health insurance.
When Obama opponents worry that he wants the government to take over health care, I don't listen. (A) It's not true. And (B), if it were true, I'm not sure that would be so bad. The government couldn't do a worse job than the for-profit insurance and pharmaceutical companies.
When they call Obama's plan Socialist, it's meaningless to me. Considering what rampant capitalism has done to our economy and our health-care-delivery system as I've experienced it, Socialism begins to sound pretty good.
But when the right wing cautions that a government insurance option will lead to rationing of medical services, that's when I take note. I know that when it comes to rationing I'll get the short end. Those of us with significant, continuous disabilities are a bigger draw on the nation's scarce health-care resources. I know that's true. If you're counting dollars and cents, keeping people like me alive and healthy just doesn't add up.
I know this, because I already feel the squeeze of rationing from the managed-care system we have today.
Don't get me wrong. I've been lucky. But the question of whether it's worth providing equal quality medical care for someone like me, a 46-year-old quadriplegic (who also happens to be a husband and father of two daughters), became dangerously clear last year, when I was hospitalized for gastrointestinal infection and septicemia. I was unconscious, inches away from death, I'm told. Before the doctors would perform their magic, they asked my wife, "Are you sure you want us to do this?"
In other words, should should they provide me with the same degree of life-saving intervention as they would anyone else?
So for me, the risks of bureaucratically controlled medicine and rationing already exist. I only hope the Obama plan--or whatever reform ultimately passes, and I do hope something does--will include a provision to guarantee equal access for all, including or perhaps especially the one in five Americans who has a disability.
First, I have a pre-existing condition. I was born with spinal muscular atrophy, a severe, degenerative neuromuscular weakness. I've never walked or stood, and have limited use of my upper body.
Having a pre-existing condition is not so big a problem insurance-wise as it used to be. In the Clinton administration, new regulations were passed that basically require insurance companies to accept a subscriber with pre-existing conditions if he or she was covered by another insurance carrier in the past year. This made a big difference in my life. Still, for that coverage, I have to pay an arm and a leg. Yes, even if they're an atrophied arm and leg.
That's largely due to the second reason I'll be deeply affected by health-care reform. Because of my lifelong disability, I've never been able to land a real job. Despite graduating with honors from Harvard College 25 years ago, I've only received temporary, short-term assignments, never full-time employment. Thus I have to go shopping for my own health insurance.
When Obama opponents worry that he wants the government to take over health care, I don't listen. (A) It's not true. And (B), if it were true, I'm not sure that would be so bad. The government couldn't do a worse job than the for-profit insurance and pharmaceutical companies.
When they call Obama's plan Socialist, it's meaningless to me. Considering what rampant capitalism has done to our economy and our health-care-delivery system as I've experienced it, Socialism begins to sound pretty good.
But when the right wing cautions that a government insurance option will lead to rationing of medical services, that's when I take note. I know that when it comes to rationing I'll get the short end. Those of us with significant, continuous disabilities are a bigger draw on the nation's scarce health-care resources. I know that's true. If you're counting dollars and cents, keeping people like me alive and healthy just doesn't add up.
I know this, because I already feel the squeeze of rationing from the managed-care system we have today.
Don't get me wrong. I've been lucky. But the question of whether it's worth providing equal quality medical care for someone like me, a 46-year-old quadriplegic (who also happens to be a husband and father of two daughters), became dangerously clear last year, when I was hospitalized for gastrointestinal infection and septicemia. I was unconscious, inches away from death, I'm told. Before the doctors would perform their magic, they asked my wife, "Are you sure you want us to do this?"
In other words, should should they provide me with the same degree of life-saving intervention as they would anyone else?
So for me, the risks of bureaucratically controlled medicine and rationing already exist. I only hope the Obama plan--or whatever reform ultimately passes, and I do hope something does--will include a provision to guarantee equal access for all, including or perhaps especially the one in five Americans who has a disability.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Battling BS--and winning!
After four months, I finally got justice from Blue Shield. One of those minor victories, to be sure--but sometimes fighting with the insurance companies seems like a full-time job!
It all started last year, when I spent three months in the hospital in intensive care. When I emerged, my bedroom at home had been transformed into a sort of ward. Gone was my marital bed, replaced with an electric hospital bed and an inflatable mattress for my wife. There was a pulse-oxymeter monitor, a tube-feeding system, a ventilator, oxygen tanks and an oxygen concentrator, and so forth. All rented.
No fear. I'm all better now. All that's left is the final mopping up--i.e., the bills.
While Blue Shield did a great job of helping with the $1 million-plus hospital charges, my policy has a $2,000 limit on “durable medical equipment.”
Naturally, I passed that threshold in almost no time.
The $2,000 DME limit does, however, have two exceptions: diabetic care and oxygen.
So when almost a year later I amassed a bill from Lifecare Solutions for all that rented equipment totaling more than $8,000, well, even Lifecare asked if I could do anything to get more out of Blue Shield. I was on the case!
My appeals to Blue Shield were denied. Yet in the denials I learned about the $2,000limit and the exception for oxygen. Wait, thought! Some of these charges ARE for oxygen!
I immediately called customer service and pleaded my case. The woman there agreed that I made sense. The charges would be reprocessed. But nothing happened. So I called again. I was told my case had been turned over to someone else, a grievance specialist. I left her countless messages. More time passed. Finally I got hold of the grievance officer, who looked everything up and said that, yes, since I had been promised, and had waited so long already, she would approve reprocessing the claims. Eureka! Or so I thought.
More time passed. I called again to check the status. When I finally got hold of the grievance officer, she absolutely floored me. "We've reconsidered," she said
I asked why.
"The exception is for oxygen. Not oxygen tanks or concentrators, tubes, masks..."
"But that's how oxygen comes," I pointed out. "That's the packaging, basically."
She put me on hold. When she came back, she spoke like a child who had been told by an adult what to say. "We only count the oxygen for refilling the tanks, not the tanks and supplies themselves."
It was too absurd. I knew now what I had to do.
Next stop: the Blue Shield Web site, where I quickly located the name of the president and CEO. I guessed--well, extrapolating from another e-mail address I'd found--how Blue Shield's (or should I call it, BS's?) e-mail address system worked, and sent the head honcho a message. I've become very good at these sorts of messages. I was clear, as brief as possible, and firm. Make that threatening. I said if he did not resolve this to my satisfaction, I would have no choice but to pursue the matter with the appropriate state agency. (Since this was in California, perhaps that wasn't much of a threat.)
The next day came the response. Basically, I was right. The charges for oxygen would be reevaluated promptly.
And you know what? This time, they actually were. My total liability: $00.00
Sometimes we do have victories.
It all started last year, when I spent three months in the hospital in intensive care. When I emerged, my bedroom at home had been transformed into a sort of ward. Gone was my marital bed, replaced with an electric hospital bed and an inflatable mattress for my wife. There was a pulse-oxymeter monitor, a tube-feeding system, a ventilator, oxygen tanks and an oxygen concentrator, and so forth. All rented.
No fear. I'm all better now. All that's left is the final mopping up--i.e., the bills.
While Blue Shield did a great job of helping with the $1 million-plus hospital charges, my policy has a $2,000 limit on “durable medical equipment.”
Naturally, I passed that threshold in almost no time.
The $2,000 DME limit does, however, have two exceptions: diabetic care and oxygen.
So when almost a year later I amassed a bill from Lifecare Solutions for all that rented equipment totaling more than $8,000, well, even Lifecare asked if I could do anything to get more out of Blue Shield. I was on the case!
My appeals to Blue Shield were denied. Yet in the denials I learned about the $2,000limit and the exception for oxygen. Wait, thought! Some of these charges ARE for oxygen!
I immediately called customer service and pleaded my case. The woman there agreed that I made sense. The charges would be reprocessed. But nothing happened. So I called again. I was told my case had been turned over to someone else, a grievance specialist. I left her countless messages. More time passed. Finally I got hold of the grievance officer, who looked everything up and said that, yes, since I had been promised, and had waited so long already, she would approve reprocessing the claims. Eureka! Or so I thought.
More time passed. I called again to check the status. When I finally got hold of the grievance officer, she absolutely floored me. "We've reconsidered," she said
I asked why.
"The exception is for oxygen. Not oxygen tanks or concentrators, tubes, masks..."
"But that's how oxygen comes," I pointed out. "That's the packaging, basically."
She put me on hold. When she came back, she spoke like a child who had been told by an adult what to say. "We only count the oxygen for refilling the tanks, not the tanks and supplies themselves."
It was too absurd. I knew now what I had to do.
Next stop: the Blue Shield Web site, where I quickly located the name of the president and CEO. I guessed--well, extrapolating from another e-mail address I'd found--how Blue Shield's (or should I call it, BS's?) e-mail address system worked, and sent the head honcho a message. I've become very good at these sorts of messages. I was clear, as brief as possible, and firm. Make that threatening. I said if he did not resolve this to my satisfaction, I would have no choice but to pursue the matter with the appropriate state agency. (Since this was in California, perhaps that wasn't much of a threat.)
The next day came the response. Basically, I was right. The charges for oxygen would be reevaluated promptly.
And you know what? This time, they actually were. My total liability: $00.00
Sometimes we do have victories.
Cinderfella, a Humanitarian?
The funniest event in the long career of comedian/actor Jerry Lewis occurred on February 22, 2009, when the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences awarded him its Jean Hersholt humanitarian Oscar.
Here was my reaction:
What a joke! Only nobody is laughing.
Sure, the Oscar ceremony may seem harmless, fluffy fun. Yet to acclaim Lewis a philanthropist and promoter of human welfare is seriously offensive.
Of course, he's receiving the accolade because of his four-decades' work as chairman of the Muscular Dystrophy Association, the charity that purports to combat more than 40 neurological diseases and produces the Labor Day Telethon.
Never mind his frequent slurs against the disabled as "cripples," gays as "fags" and women as nothing more than baby-producing machines. After all, being smart-mouthed is part of his shtick. His politically incorrect patter might simply be outdated, not mean-spirited.
In fact, my primary objection to Lewis' receiving the humanitarian award is precisely because of his chairmanship of the MDA.
In the late 1960s and early '70s, when the MDA was headquartered in New York, I was its metropolitan-area poster child, one step away from being its national poster child. I could have been Jerry's No. 1 kid. But then came a full-page magazine spread of me, at seven, standing in leg braces and looking up through unruly blond curls with the overhead caption: "If I grow up, I want to be a fireman."
If? Though I was born with spinal muscular atrophy, one of the disabling diseases the MDA targets for research bucks and free doctor visits, and could never walk or stand on my own, my condition had "plateaued," as the neurologists say, and my life expectancy was normal. Plus, I did not want to be a fireman! I wanted to be a scientist. Told about the caption ahead of time, I crossed my fingers as the camera clicked.
Afterward, furious at being exploited, I told my mother I wanted to quit. I could no longer peddle pity, which I already knew was a problem in my life.
To be sure, by now everyone is aware that the MDA offends many disabled people by promoting pity over progress. It will continue doing this because pity, like sex, sells. And the money it raises doubtless goes to good causes—medical research and, for those without adequate health insurance, some wheelchair purchases and clinical visits. The MDA also hosts an accessible summer camp.
Yet it's never given even passing support to the cause of disability rights. It stresses medical cures instead of equal education and job opportunities. What's worse, by medicalizing people with disabilities it actually works against our full inclusion in society.
The cost to disabled people's status and self-esteem is far too great.
What's most shocking has been the Cinderfella star's hostility toward changing his or the MDA's marketing tactics. He dismissed protesters as a lunatic minority, and in a 1993 Vanity Fair profile he threatened the MDA's critics by saying, "I'll have you killed." Was that more sharp-tongued humor? Even more surprising, in the 1990s when I suggested to MDA's then chief executive, the late Robert Ross, that we settle our differences, he flatly refused. Hate mail ensued. Though Ross denied any part in it, I then received a letter that began, "Dear Mr. Mattlin, I don't know what you did, but at my local MDA meeting they told us to write you and tell you to stop doing it..."
Clearly, Jerry Lewis spearheads a charity that's far more devious than I'd ever suspected. Praising him for his public service is like giving Donald Trump a cash prize for humility. It just doesn't make any sense. It perverts whatever meaning the Jean Hersholt Oscar ever had.
More importantly, the Academy's ill-advised tribute to Lewis is an affront to those of us he and the MDA have exploited and offended for years. Indeed, it belittles the truly humanitarian effort to normalize disability, which Lewis has willfully worked against.
The Oscar committee really lost touch with reality on this one.
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Here was my reaction:
What a joke! Only nobody is laughing.
Sure, the Oscar ceremony may seem harmless, fluffy fun. Yet to acclaim Lewis a philanthropist and promoter of human welfare is seriously offensive.
Of course, he's receiving the accolade because of his four-decades' work as chairman of the Muscular Dystrophy Association, the charity that purports to combat more than 40 neurological diseases and produces the Labor Day Telethon.
Never mind his frequent slurs against the disabled as "cripples," gays as "fags" and women as nothing more than baby-producing machines. After all, being smart-mouthed is part of his shtick. His politically incorrect patter might simply be outdated, not mean-spirited.
In fact, my primary objection to Lewis' receiving the humanitarian award is precisely because of his chairmanship of the MDA.
In the late 1960s and early '70s, when the MDA was headquartered in New York, I was its metropolitan-area poster child, one step away from being its national poster child. I could have been Jerry's No. 1 kid. But then came a full-page magazine spread of me, at seven, standing in leg braces and looking up through unruly blond curls with the overhead caption: "If I grow up, I want to be a fireman."
If? Though I was born with spinal muscular atrophy, one of the disabling diseases the MDA targets for research bucks and free doctor visits, and could never walk or stand on my own, my condition had "plateaued," as the neurologists say, and my life expectancy was normal. Plus, I did not want to be a fireman! I wanted to be a scientist. Told about the caption ahead of time, I crossed my fingers as the camera clicked.
Afterward, furious at being exploited, I told my mother I wanted to quit. I could no longer peddle pity, which I already knew was a problem in my life.
To be sure, by now everyone is aware that the MDA offends many disabled people by promoting pity over progress. It will continue doing this because pity, like sex, sells. And the money it raises doubtless goes to good causes—medical research and, for those without adequate health insurance, some wheelchair purchases and clinical visits. The MDA also hosts an accessible summer camp.
Yet it's never given even passing support to the cause of disability rights. It stresses medical cures instead of equal education and job opportunities. What's worse, by medicalizing people with disabilities it actually works against our full inclusion in society.
The cost to disabled people's status and self-esteem is far too great.
What's most shocking has been the Cinderfella star's hostility toward changing his or the MDA's marketing tactics. He dismissed protesters as a lunatic minority, and in a 1993 Vanity Fair profile he threatened the MDA's critics by saying, "I'll have you killed." Was that more sharp-tongued humor? Even more surprising, in the 1990s when I suggested to MDA's then chief executive, the late Robert Ross, that we settle our differences, he flatly refused. Hate mail ensued. Though Ross denied any part in it, I then received a letter that began, "Dear Mr. Mattlin, I don't know what you did, but at my local MDA meeting they told us to write you and tell you to stop doing it..."
Clearly, Jerry Lewis spearheads a charity that's far more devious than I'd ever suspected. Praising him for his public service is like giving Donald Trump a cash prize for humility. It just doesn't make any sense. It perverts whatever meaning the Jean Hersholt Oscar ever had.
More importantly, the Academy's ill-advised tribute to Lewis is an affront to those of us he and the MDA have exploited and offended for years. Indeed, it belittles the truly humanitarian effort to normalize disability, which Lewis has willfully worked against.
The Oscar committee really lost touch with reality on this one.
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Hair Growth
Last night, in what might be an act of supreme parental misguidedness, my wife and I watched a DVD of "Hair" with our kids. Now, I never saw the original stage version. I was too young, I guess. I remember talk about naked people on stage, how shocking, though not necessarily bad, that nakedness was. But when the amazing, joyful movie version came out in 1979, I did see it. I was in high school. I saw it with my dad.
Yes, my dad. He liked it, too. My high school friends thought that was funny, thought it was too subversive for parents. I bought and still have the LP of the soundtrack. I'd liked the music -- mostly its energy and spirit.
My wife remembered the film fondly too, and so we thought we'd share that joy with our two young daughters. All right, there was an ulterior motive.
You see, last week was their school's annual talent show. Kids volunteer to audition various acts. Though not all proposed acts end up in the final performance, no child who wants to be in is left out. Some get assigned to ensemble numbers. Our daughters didn't come up with an act in time to audition, so they got to be part of the opening number, which included 8 or 10 kids between the ages of 5 and 12. Two years ago, however, my older daughter did a solo act where she performed most of the "Modern Major General" from Guilbert & Sullivan's "Pirates of Penzance." She'd got the idea from the video we'd rented of the Kevin Kline version.
After this year's talent show, I began thinking how we ought to introduce our daughters to more musicals. Perhaps new ideas and acts would be sparked, but if not, well, they like to sing and dance and might enjoy them. They also enjoy having long hair -- especially my older daughter, who is 9 and whose hair is very long indeed. Plus she's very into the Beatles, and tie-dyed T-shirts are in with her crowd. So naturally, I thought of the "Hair."
It's rated PG. Would it be rated PG today, or something harsher, stricter? The references to drugs and sex were embarrassing for us parental types, to say the least. ("What's cunnilingus, Mommy? And what's LSD?") My wife and I found ourselves muttering things like, "People did things in those days because they didn't know any better." Or "Drugs weren't as bad for you back then. Now they are stronger, much worse, and you should never take them." I believe our girls know better than to copy what they see on TV. In any case, we tried to focus their attention on the nifty dancing, the spirit of the Age of Aquarius. (My favorite song, actually, is the energetic, nonconformist "I Got Life," a rallying cry sung in contradiction to the fussy, formal society lady's scolding, "You've got some nerve, young man!")
But beyond the sex and drug references, how much has changed in the 26 years since the movie came out -- let alone the 36 or so since the stage version? And perhaps more importantly, how much has not?
The hippies in Milos Forman's masterful adaptation are beautifully decked out in multicolored plummage. The men's long hair isn't ratty or tangled, and thus not "natural" at all. It's fluffy and feathery, more 70s than 60s, I suppose. They have no visible means of support, perhaps having more in common with today's homeless -- except for the clothes and hairdos. But I'd forgotten the ironic ending.
If you don't want the end to be given away, don't read the next paragraph or two. But I figure it's an old enough movie I'm safe.
Berger (Treat Williams), the lead flower child, partly on a lark and partly I think out of a sense of nobility or loyalty to his friend Claude (John Savage), frees Claude from boot camp for one afternoon so he can meet up with Sheila (Beverly D'Angelo) and the rest of the gang -- frees him by taking his place in the barracks. Berger cuts his hair, dons Claude's uniform, and attempts to fill in. His timing is unfortunate, though, because in that brief interval the entire unit is shipped out to Vietnam, and certain death. We see the young men in uniform, in perfectly straight lines, marching into a military airplane, filing into a vast darkness that represents death. As the movie fades to peace marches, people singing "Let the Sunshine in," we get a quick glimpse of the hippie gang without him -- 3 couples, a small boy and a baby now -- looking at Berger's grave. My 9-year-old daughter, already in tears because Berger, the coolest hippie, has to go off to war when he doesn't want to, suddenly finds it unbearable. "Oh God. They had to show that! I was hoping, you know, they'd show him coming back OK from war. But not that!"
In fairness, I have to wrestle with my own knee-jerk desire for my daughter to never cry or suffer at all. It is a sad scene, and her tears are appropriate. I know that. I know sorrow is a valid emotion she must learn to live with. And I must learn to live with her living with it. After she cried a while and we got the kids to bed, I started thinking: Did Berger have to die? Did he have to atone for his sins -- drug use, car stealing, and generally disrupting civilized life? All done with great charm, granted. Nevertheless, would you really want someone like him and his buddies invading your private party, say, and dancing on the furniture? Did he somehow deserve to die? If so, is the film version of "Hair" more of an old-fashioned morality play than its creators had intended?
In the end, however, I decided no, the film is not making a conservative statement. It's not saying that the wages of sin is (are?) certain death. Rather, it's about wartime. Death is commonplace in times of war. An everyday reality. As we know today. A lot of innocent people died in Vietnam and are dying now in Iraq. That's what the peace protests were about. Are about.
Look, we can't let our mourning -- our longing for the company of those who have died -- ruin our present, take over our lives. But at the same time, it's important to be disturbed by the randomness and meaninglessness of death, especially death for a cause that's questionable to some of us.
Still, I find myself wondering: Do our current peace protests against President Bush and the War in Iraq have the social consciousness of those during Vietnam? How willing are we to be radical, to face our society's unpleasant challenges?
Perhaps I'm not putting this well. Stay with me.
Another example: "Hair" has a couple of songs about race. Especially fun is the matched set, "Black Boys" and "White Boys" (yummy chocolate-covered treats, delicious and smooth as silk, respectively). Could you get away with something like that today? In our political correctness, we're supposed to be totally colorblind. We recognize the contributions of different cultures -- African, Asian, Latin -- but do we dare even acknowledge the potential tensions in race relations? It's not cool even to talk about it like that anymore. All that's supposed to be in the past. The bad old days before Civil Rights. Well, that's good, but how much are we burying our heads in the sand, smug in the belief that we've put all those tensions behind us? That we're not the racist culture we used to be. We're enlightened! All that stuff is quaint. Or are we just avoiding the issues, allowing them to smolder beneath the surface?
I'm not entirely sure our kids were ready to deal with any of these issues, especially not in light of an overall happy musical about dancing around with long hair. But maybe it's not so bad for them to have to be aware of the struggles that have come before and are still relevant today. The struggles for freedom and liberty, for free expression, for love and connecting, which seem to go against the struggles for civility, fidelity, a sense of order. I worry that our society has gradually become as repressive as, if not more repressive than, the bad old 1950s. More inclusive, perhaps, but how comfortable are we at honestly facing the still-current, ongoing realities of inequality, injustice, war, racial friction?
As the saying goes, the more things change the more they remain the same.
What do you think?
Yes, my dad. He liked it, too. My high school friends thought that was funny, thought it was too subversive for parents. I bought and still have the LP of the soundtrack. I'd liked the music -- mostly its energy and spirit.
My wife remembered the film fondly too, and so we thought we'd share that joy with our two young daughters. All right, there was an ulterior motive.
You see, last week was their school's annual talent show. Kids volunteer to audition various acts. Though not all proposed acts end up in the final performance, no child who wants to be in is left out. Some get assigned to ensemble numbers. Our daughters didn't come up with an act in time to audition, so they got to be part of the opening number, which included 8 or 10 kids between the ages of 5 and 12. Two years ago, however, my older daughter did a solo act where she performed most of the "Modern Major General" from Guilbert & Sullivan's "Pirates of Penzance." She'd got the idea from the video we'd rented of the Kevin Kline version.
After this year's talent show, I began thinking how we ought to introduce our daughters to more musicals. Perhaps new ideas and acts would be sparked, but if not, well, they like to sing and dance and might enjoy them. They also enjoy having long hair -- especially my older daughter, who is 9 and whose hair is very long indeed. Plus she's very into the Beatles, and tie-dyed T-shirts are in with her crowd. So naturally, I thought of the "Hair."
It's rated PG. Would it be rated PG today, or something harsher, stricter? The references to drugs and sex were embarrassing for us parental types, to say the least. ("What's cunnilingus, Mommy? And what's LSD?") My wife and I found ourselves muttering things like, "People did things in those days because they didn't know any better." Or "Drugs weren't as bad for you back then. Now they are stronger, much worse, and you should never take them." I believe our girls know better than to copy what they see on TV. In any case, we tried to focus their attention on the nifty dancing, the spirit of the Age of Aquarius. (My favorite song, actually, is the energetic, nonconformist "I Got Life," a rallying cry sung in contradiction to the fussy, formal society lady's scolding, "You've got some nerve, young man!")
But beyond the sex and drug references, how much has changed in the 26 years since the movie came out -- let alone the 36 or so since the stage version? And perhaps more importantly, how much has not?
The hippies in Milos Forman's masterful adaptation are beautifully decked out in multicolored plummage. The men's long hair isn't ratty or tangled, and thus not "natural" at all. It's fluffy and feathery, more 70s than 60s, I suppose. They have no visible means of support, perhaps having more in common with today's homeless -- except for the clothes and hairdos. But I'd forgotten the ironic ending.
If you don't want the end to be given away, don't read the next paragraph or two. But I figure it's an old enough movie I'm safe.
Berger (Treat Williams), the lead flower child, partly on a lark and partly I think out of a sense of nobility or loyalty to his friend Claude (John Savage), frees Claude from boot camp for one afternoon so he can meet up with Sheila (Beverly D'Angelo) and the rest of the gang -- frees him by taking his place in the barracks. Berger cuts his hair, dons Claude's uniform, and attempts to fill in. His timing is unfortunate, though, because in that brief interval the entire unit is shipped out to Vietnam, and certain death. We see the young men in uniform, in perfectly straight lines, marching into a military airplane, filing into a vast darkness that represents death. As the movie fades to peace marches, people singing "Let the Sunshine in," we get a quick glimpse of the hippie gang without him -- 3 couples, a small boy and a baby now -- looking at Berger's grave. My 9-year-old daughter, already in tears because Berger, the coolest hippie, has to go off to war when he doesn't want to, suddenly finds it unbearable. "Oh God. They had to show that! I was hoping, you know, they'd show him coming back OK from war. But not that!"
In fairness, I have to wrestle with my own knee-jerk desire for my daughter to never cry or suffer at all. It is a sad scene, and her tears are appropriate. I know that. I know sorrow is a valid emotion she must learn to live with. And I must learn to live with her living with it. After she cried a while and we got the kids to bed, I started thinking: Did Berger have to die? Did he have to atone for his sins -- drug use, car stealing, and generally disrupting civilized life? All done with great charm, granted. Nevertheless, would you really want someone like him and his buddies invading your private party, say, and dancing on the furniture? Did he somehow deserve to die? If so, is the film version of "Hair" more of an old-fashioned morality play than its creators had intended?
In the end, however, I decided no, the film is not making a conservative statement. It's not saying that the wages of sin is (are?) certain death. Rather, it's about wartime. Death is commonplace in times of war. An everyday reality. As we know today. A lot of innocent people died in Vietnam and are dying now in Iraq. That's what the peace protests were about. Are about.
Look, we can't let our mourning -- our longing for the company of those who have died -- ruin our present, take over our lives. But at the same time, it's important to be disturbed by the randomness and meaninglessness of death, especially death for a cause that's questionable to some of us.
Still, I find myself wondering: Do our current peace protests against President Bush and the War in Iraq have the social consciousness of those during Vietnam? How willing are we to be radical, to face our society's unpleasant challenges?
Perhaps I'm not putting this well. Stay with me.
Another example: "Hair" has a couple of songs about race. Especially fun is the matched set, "Black Boys" and "White Boys" (yummy chocolate-covered treats, delicious and smooth as silk, respectively). Could you get away with something like that today? In our political correctness, we're supposed to be totally colorblind. We recognize the contributions of different cultures -- African, Asian, Latin -- but do we dare even acknowledge the potential tensions in race relations? It's not cool even to talk about it like that anymore. All that's supposed to be in the past. The bad old days before Civil Rights. Well, that's good, but how much are we burying our heads in the sand, smug in the belief that we've put all those tensions behind us? That we're not the racist culture we used to be. We're enlightened! All that stuff is quaint. Or are we just avoiding the issues, allowing them to smolder beneath the surface?
I'm not entirely sure our kids were ready to deal with any of these issues, especially not in light of an overall happy musical about dancing around with long hair. But maybe it's not so bad for them to have to be aware of the struggles that have come before and are still relevant today. The struggles for freedom and liberty, for free expression, for love and connecting, which seem to go against the struggles for civility, fidelity, a sense of order. I worry that our society has gradually become as repressive as, if not more repressive than, the bad old 1950s. More inclusive, perhaps, but how comfortable are we at honestly facing the still-current, ongoing realities of inequality, injustice, war, racial friction?
As the saying goes, the more things change the more they remain the same.
What do you think?
Thursday, August 6, 2009
In Foreign Hands
Last summer, the day before a family trip to Washington, DC, my motorized wheelchair stopped working. I'd been planning and replanning how best to pad and stow it for the long plane ride from Los Angeles. Airlines are notorious for turning expensive, complex wheelchairs into pretzels. But this I could not blame on the airline or a loose plug, bad batteries, flipped circuit breakers or anything else easy to fix. The glitch was electronic and microscopic.
I've used a wheelchair my whole life because I was born with a neuromuscular weakness similar to muscular dystrophy. I never walked or stood. Pushed everywhere till I was 10, when I graduated to a rickety motorized chair that could be used only indoors, I didn't gain full-time autonomy of movement till I left for Harvard College in 1980.
Now that I'm 45 and my hands have become too weak for a standard wheelchair joystick, I drive with a tiny, ultrasensitive joystick I manipulate with my mouth. The mouth-stick was a godsend, even at $2,000 out of pocket and special-ordered from Belgium. Now it was dead. There was no chance of getting it fixed or replaced in time for the trip, and nothing else would do.
"Should we postpone?" I asked my wife, who would bear the brunt of pushing me in the notorious Washington summer humidity.
She frowned. We had pre-bought museum and theater tickets, made reservations and social obligations. She said if I was willing to use my old manual wheelchair, which I keep in the closet as backup, and is lighter and more portable but less comfortable, we should go ahead and make the best of it.
Our trip went off without further hitch. But my attempts to reach the wheelchair vendor who had sold me the chair failed; the place was out of business. So immediately upon returning home I diligently looked up other options. I even e-mailed the joystick manufacturer in Belgium. No luck. Finally, in desperation, I tried a local joint I didn't really trust. It was basically run out of a family garage.
"Okay, you come over and we have look," the voice on the phone interrupted before I could fully explain the complexity of my situation.
With nothing to lose, I had my aide drive me over right away. When we got there the plain brick storefront appeared to be closed. But Middle East-tinged music wafted out of a radio somewhere on the other side of the garage gate.
"Hello?" we called out.
After a moment, a bearded young man in a gray cotton sweater and glasses emerged, opened the gate and ushered us inside. His English seemed good, and I explained my problem. The young man furrowed his brow and then started fiddling with my chair, removing the joystick and examining it as closely as a jeweler might—or as if he'd never seen anything like it before. I confess to thinking, "Oh God, he's going to break it!" before remembering it was already broken.
"One minute, please," he said before disappearing to another room with my precious component in hand. Feeling more helpless than ever, I hoped I hadn't made matters worse. When he returned he said he might be able to fix what was undoubtedly a short, though it could take hours of trial and error to find it. I agreed to call him later that afternoon. What were my alternatives?
Before leaving, I asked the young man his name.
"Mohamed," he answered.
Mohamed. I had supposed—hoped—the place was the home business of an immigrant Israeli family or, more likely, Persian Jews who had escaped Iran when the Shah fell, like so many parents of my children's school friends. But no. And this Mohamed was not African-American, either. This was the real deal, the Middle Eastern variety of Islam. The terrorist variety. My mobility was in his hands.
I have always been an urban dweller who prides himself on a cosmopolitan open-mindedness. I've hired personal-care aides from all parts of the world, learned to communicate the most intimate details of my life to people with a variety of accents and customs. But I suddenly panicked. It was one thing if this place was the health-care equivalent of a gypsy cab, say, but quite another if it was even remotely associated with the unthinkable.
I was in my van when Mohamed ran up. "Wait! I found some loose connections. May I try it?"
He reattached the piece on the spot. The chair worked. For a moment, anyway. The connection was still faulty, but could be jury-rigged until a replacement arrived. I was no longer stuck. It felt miraculous. I told him so.
Mohamed smiled at my pleasure. "Well, it seems God loves you," he said.
Disabled people are constantly prayed for and blessed by strangers. I have learned to be leery of uninvited religious overtures. This time, however, I felt so profoundly grateful for being "saved," as it were, from interminable immobility that I decided not to take offense. "And God loves you, too," I replied.
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I've used a wheelchair my whole life because I was born with a neuromuscular weakness similar to muscular dystrophy. I never walked or stood. Pushed everywhere till I was 10, when I graduated to a rickety motorized chair that could be used only indoors, I didn't gain full-time autonomy of movement till I left for Harvard College in 1980.
Now that I'm 45 and my hands have become too weak for a standard wheelchair joystick, I drive with a tiny, ultrasensitive joystick I manipulate with my mouth. The mouth-stick was a godsend, even at $2,000 out of pocket and special-ordered from Belgium. Now it was dead. There was no chance of getting it fixed or replaced in time for the trip, and nothing else would do.
"Should we postpone?" I asked my wife, who would bear the brunt of pushing me in the notorious Washington summer humidity.
She frowned. We had pre-bought museum and theater tickets, made reservations and social obligations. She said if I was willing to use my old manual wheelchair, which I keep in the closet as backup, and is lighter and more portable but less comfortable, we should go ahead and make the best of it.
Our trip went off without further hitch. But my attempts to reach the wheelchair vendor who had sold me the chair failed; the place was out of business. So immediately upon returning home I diligently looked up other options. I even e-mailed the joystick manufacturer in Belgium. No luck. Finally, in desperation, I tried a local joint I didn't really trust. It was basically run out of a family garage.
"Okay, you come over and we have look," the voice on the phone interrupted before I could fully explain the complexity of my situation.
With nothing to lose, I had my aide drive me over right away. When we got there the plain brick storefront appeared to be closed. But Middle East-tinged music wafted out of a radio somewhere on the other side of the garage gate.
"Hello?" we called out.
After a moment, a bearded young man in a gray cotton sweater and glasses emerged, opened the gate and ushered us inside. His English seemed good, and I explained my problem. The young man furrowed his brow and then started fiddling with my chair, removing the joystick and examining it as closely as a jeweler might—or as if he'd never seen anything like it before. I confess to thinking, "Oh God, he's going to break it!" before remembering it was already broken.
"One minute, please," he said before disappearing to another room with my precious component in hand. Feeling more helpless than ever, I hoped I hadn't made matters worse. When he returned he said he might be able to fix what was undoubtedly a short, though it could take hours of trial and error to find it. I agreed to call him later that afternoon. What were my alternatives?
Before leaving, I asked the young man his name.
"Mohamed," he answered.
Mohamed. I had supposed—hoped—the place was the home business of an immigrant Israeli family or, more likely, Persian Jews who had escaped Iran when the Shah fell, like so many parents of my children's school friends. But no. And this Mohamed was not African-American, either. This was the real deal, the Middle Eastern variety of Islam. The terrorist variety. My mobility was in his hands.
I have always been an urban dweller who prides himself on a cosmopolitan open-mindedness. I've hired personal-care aides from all parts of the world, learned to communicate the most intimate details of my life to people with a variety of accents and customs. But I suddenly panicked. It was one thing if this place was the health-care equivalent of a gypsy cab, say, but quite another if it was even remotely associated with the unthinkable.
I was in my van when Mohamed ran up. "Wait! I found some loose connections. May I try it?"
He reattached the piece on the spot. The chair worked. For a moment, anyway. The connection was still faulty, but could be jury-rigged until a replacement arrived. I was no longer stuck. It felt miraculous. I told him so.
Mohamed smiled at my pleasure. "Well, it seems God loves you," he said.
Disabled people are constantly prayed for and blessed by strangers. I have learned to be leery of uninvited religious overtures. This time, however, I felt so profoundly grateful for being "saved," as it were, from interminable immobility that I decided not to take offense. "And God loves you, too," I replied.
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